hula hoops and hampster wheels

Dear Diary,

Weight: 146 -- ugh, the Dr. wants me at 106 - I'd be happy at 116-126
Drinks: 0 alcholic, 10 cans of diet coke...
Smoking: yes, but less -- quit day set for Friday
Today's Highlight: Not having the worst hair day in the last 2 decades
Today's Low Light: I have gas, really bad gas.
Time at the gym: 35 minutes
Excuse thought of to avoid said gym: NA, Miss Swessi had to make me go though...
Issues and Concerns: The weather forecast isn't favorable for the zoo date planned for this weekend.
Funny Moment of the Day: Me in sweatpants -- out in public is pretty funny, but getting on the eliptical machine and getting worn out on level one, was sad funny.
Mushy Lovey Dovey Moment: Dave encouraging and wishing me luck via text on the job I applied for yesterday, and as of now, no one else has applied.
Food Du Jour: Breakfast: diet coke, 5 twizzlers Mid Morning Snack: 1/2 king size bag of M&Ms, Lunch: Leann Chins -- chin dynasty: 1/2 peking chicken, 1/2 seasme chicken, vegetable fried rice, 2 cream puffs, regular cherry pepsi, fortune cookie, dinner: triple chocolate cake & diet coke
Avoiding: putting laundry away
Looking forward to: eating the chocolate cake -- don't worry I won't go Cake on y'all.

Dear Diary,

Weight: Too freightened to stand on the scale.
Drinks: 0 ( I guess I'm not a lush like Miss Bridget)
Cigerettes: 1/2 pack today -- naughty me
Diet du Jour: The extra healthy - King Size Butterfinger and King Size Caramello for breakfast -- the last of my stash of Gardetto Rye Chips for mid morning snack. M&M icecream treat for lunch -- dinner, venison steak, baked potato and 1.5 english muffins both oozing with butter. Too many diet cokes to remember.
Time at the Gym: 0 --
Logical reasoning for avoiding said gym: I need to buy sports bras tomorrow.
Highlight of the day: That caramello bar was really good.
Lowlight of the day: Probably the worst hair day in the last 2 decades.
Issues and Concerns: Just applied for a new job at work
Wardrobe Malfunction: the cute little strap on my black shoes broke and my fat girl xl sweater shrunk in the wash and the buttons are busting at the well, they are all busting to break free.
Looking forward to: brushing my teeth with the new toothbrush and watching House MD

my standby perfume is hypnose by lancome -- but it's more of a fall or winter smell -- so in spring and summer I try to mix it up a bit and this year, i found my way back to bath n body. I had been on an unofficial boycott since they kept replacing all of my favorite finds there -- and now I can't even remember the names of them -- only that there was a pink one, a blue one and a green one I liked... and they don't make them anymore.

So I went with my friends Swessi over lunch and stocked up on some lotions -- cause let's face facts - winter was not kind to my skin and now I have some dry spots.

I picked up:

Wild honeysuckle
delicate orchid? or something with an orchid on it -- I can't find it at the moment, it might be at Dave's? or else it has entered the wonderful abyss of lost items.
Coconut Lime Verbena -- which I like at first, but then sometimes I smell vanilla in it and I get nauseous, one of the side effects vanilla has on me.
and finally
the Pomegranate number --
I like them all, I buy them all -- bad habit, yes, but on the other hand it had been some time since I made a trip to the B&B

Afterthought: coconut lime verbena -- can only be worn on days i know i won't see Dave, as his reaction to coconut is similar to my reaction to vanilla...

The honeysuckle is soft and airy but a little too powdery

so the orchid number and pomegranate are by far the two favorites out of the 4. just can't find the orchid one and the pomegranate is at work.

On the same note, for my birthday -- I bought myself some cute soaps from World Market -- Lemon, Lime and Orange -- for my love of all things citrus. Yes, this is perhaps the lamest birthday present I've ever got for myself but - I wasn't in a shopping mood and this is what I found.

I love new socks. I used to be addicted to buying them... or perhaps it was prior to my fondness for laundry - I just bought them to avoid washing them? Anyway, It's been a hobby for some time to buy new socks and there is nothing quite like the feel of new socks to brighten anyones day. My toes are happy --- "No one has sweat in these babies before!" is what I imagine they would say -- if feet could talk...



So I recently picked up a plethora of new socks -- came home from work plopped my bag on the table. When I returned to fetch my socks after running to the bathroom. My dad had already snooped in my new bag of socks -- (all's fair if it's left on the kitchen table I guess -- just glad I didn't have lube, batteries or a pregnacy test in there with my socks. haha) Well I go to get my socks -- and if you think I love doing laundry, I can't hold a candle to my dad. My dad was already getting a basket ready to wash my new socks -- he was tearing labels off -- snipping plastic fasners that hold the socks together, removing the metal clips on the fancier socks, and I ask him what he's doing -- he looks up and says, laundry.

I said: Oh you really don't have to, I'll wear them first and then you can wash them, wanting to take my socks back and evaluate my sock purchases -- see how cute they would match certain sweaters and pants -- usual sock addict stuff.

He replies: You can't wear them -- they were made in China -- they probably have lead in them I have to wash them first.

I said: Really, I don't think there is anything to worry about -- can I have my socks back? Were they even made in China? I look a couple of the cotton ones were...

He replies: Once I wash them and they are safe for you to wear.

I said: Fine, as he has already ripped all the socks from the packaging and unpaired them all and they are sitting disheveled in a basket --

The next day my socks are paired -- and rolled together in little balls in the basket.

Since then -- I've been missing random socks -- maybe they were sent to the lab for lead testing? I will never know.

So this weekend, on a partial whim, partial mental to-do list, I purchased a new toothbrush and upon the reconmendation of my friends Alice and Ava- I went with the sonicare. It's brushing on a new level - I'm greatly pleased with the results just from today's usage. My teeth felt smoother and looked cleaner. The pulsating will take some getting use to -- and I'm messier and have to remember to not wear my glasses when brushing. Some spittle went flying -- but these should improve with time.

I'll be the first to admit it -- I have some walls, I can be mushy and lovey and all that gooey junk, but I'm not exactly the vulnerable type.
I've always had some sort of guard up - the "I'm not going to let you in cause then you can hurt me later on, and then I'll want to hurt you, and I'm not that physically endowed to beat you to a bloody pulp and I just might hurt myself more in the process.." You know that one? Yeah, it's been an ol' stand by... Until now, I'm at this utmost vulnerable state -- and I'm 2/3 a.o.k with it and 1/3 scared. But, for the first time ever it's worth being scared, and I better stop now before I turn into a complete goober -- but yeah, I'm 2/3 sure I'm already gooberfied, and 1/3 scared of making you barf. So, I'll pause and post with out being extra goobery.

Granted, I hate being the last to know- but sometimes it's hard to be in the loop and not be able to say anything.

For example, someone at work- who is a temp, had his last day yesterday --- but he was in the dark as the temp agency was going to inform him after 5. I knew because one of my good friends is taking over his region and I was to train her on Texas lien law and give her the scoop on the area she will be moving into on Monday. Now, I understand that temps are different that regular employees -- but he's been temping here since September. He just had a couple issues with getting to work on time... and taking extra long lunches... and other issues.

I also know that someone else is considering putting in their notice --- but as nothing is official - I don't know anything.

Just like I don't know that someone else is having an extra marital affair(s) and someone else is interested in becoming a swinger, that someone else is gay and that someone else is a dirty old man. Someone else likes pain during sex. See these are the things I may or may not know to protect the innocent some features have been altercated.

So I went out shopping today and I hate fashion. I'm pretty classic in my wardrobe - and I wanted some cute tops for spring. I was set and on a mission to find a couple shirts for work and play and came home with pudding pops and sno-balls from the grocery store after I was disappointed with the options out there.



Part of my problem is my own damn fault for gaining some winter weight, and not being able to fit in my clothes. Alas -- I broke down and bought some pants this week that I could actually button instead of using a safety pin to clothes them up.

My next problem is -- being classified as petite by my lack of vertical ability -- puts me in the petite section -- now, I'm not sure if you've ever looked in the petite section - but the shirts are all stuff my grandma would wear, and good thing for her since she's 4-11 too. But it doesn't matter if I'm at macy's, sears, jcp, herbergers, kohl's anywhere - where they have defined sections for general body types - the petite section will do me absolutely no good.

I'm not looking for trendy things -- I'm talking regular -- normal things like cotton/spandex button shirts, cable sweaters, ribbed sweaters, nice shirts appropriate for work -- a nice hearty cardigan that will keep me warm under the tundra-like air conditioning vent about my desk, I'm finding tons of pure polyester or silk shirts that don't represent the classic - boring 2o/30 something look I'm going for, instead are representative of the 50/60 something going to church outfit, plus silk requires special washing attention and I'm not ready to trust anyone in this house to get it right, myself included.

So I've decided I have to look thoughout the whole women's section. And what do I find, everything I don't find flattering or atttractive... big bold prints, super form fitting, extra flouncy, horizontal stripes, camp shirts, nautical themes, teddy bear themes, polka dots that are too large to be flattering, cute dresses that will go past my ankles or show too much bosom for the office.

I'm at a loss -- I think I'll be investing in some polo shirts to get through this fashion crisis. I have been anti polo shirt for a longtime - with my hair being short I was afraid I'd look like a prepubescent boy -- but finally the hair is at a length where there would be no confusion, that and my boobs have also grown from the recent weight gain.

I'm back to drinking diet coke, it doesn't taste as good as it once does but it's getting better. In addition to drinking diet coke I've also incorporated crystal lite into my liquid consumption, that and a glass of wine with dinner -- I haven't ended up in the hospital yet, so maybe my sulfate tolerance is building -- cause I've also been eating raisins and dehydrated fruits. Fake healthiness is oozing from me!

So winter is full of the lame dates, dinner & the movies taking top choice, cause let's face it, I don't want to freeze my tushi off.

Fun date ideas for spring and summer:

picnic at the park
flying kites
going to the zoo
going to a lake/beach
county fairs/ state fairs / amusement parks
going on walks
barbeques
star gazing/snuggling
baseball games
antiquing in stillwater
visiting lame historical sites ie the kelly farm
car shows
fishing from a dock
bon fires
camping
mini golf
music in the park
fireworks
go the farmers market -- get some food, make some lunch
frisbee golf
wine tasting / make your own wine
visit a beer brewery
historical walking tour of houses on summit ave
political gathering
more for autumn & late summer:
go to the apple orchard
corn maze

and for rainy days:
art museum
science museum
omni shows
history museum
movies
reading together in bed
board games
indoor picnics
bowling
arcade
casino
race track
planetarium -- doen't open in the metro til 2009 though...
poetry readings -- dave would just about die.

for next winter:
snow ball fights
driving around looking at xmas lights
winter carnival
macy's display

So I won't include all the details -- since we have a trip to Chicago coming up and I need to have a good story to tell. But it was worse than expected and I wish I would have had the huztpah to just RSVP -- I'm busy, and send a gift card.

PS. I need a car with cruise control - my poor ankle was swollen last night.Or maybe I'm growing a cankle? The judge and jury are still out on that.

Pss. The baby is cute, and gross -- at the same time. I did hold and coo at the baby and I got to feed it and it didn't puke on me, the baby had the best manners out of the three of them -- shocking but true,

Psss. One thing is for certain --- I am not gun-ho for having a baby and this little trip did prove to be excellent form of birth control. I like the simple things in life -- sleeping through the night, not having to wear a badge of vomit on my shirt, the only butt I need to wipe is my own, yep -- the simple things in life.

Pssss. Also -- her boyfriend is pretty much an A hole and I think that he will be a horrible father and or human being. His name is Chris -- let's just be glad it isn't Kris like that dude from the camping adventure, but yeah -- his braniac idea - was to take the baby new born on a road trip to Boston in the coming weeks - so he could go to a baseball game at Fenway -- cause the tickets on ebay were only $1. Does he understand the premise of ebay?

If you thought she was emotional in the past -- just multiply that by 100 -- yep I should have just mailed a gift card. PS. The long drive, the annoyance of Kate, allcombined drove me to start smoking again -- so I get to start quitting all over again tommorrow. Wish me luck.