Ok Ava. Message heard.
I will be taking a hiatus from jumping back into dating. Let's face facts I'm not ready and it would only be rebound frills and that's not good for anyone. I'm too old to be slutty and want sometime within the next decade to find something wholesome and substansial. I guess sometimes you aren't supposed to get back up on the horse and my total annoyance with every Penis bearing guy out there is proof in the pudding. (yes, I'm full of cliches today.)
I watched Bridget Jones's last night and I am Bridget without the happy ending. Sooo I must sing really bad lite FM ballads at the top of my lungs and tend to my cat, make some blue soup, and maybe afterawhile I'll try and try again. But at least not until after my birthday when I have 28-yr old version of my 27-yr old crisis.
But until then maybe I'll write a little more, or paint a little more definetly not watch anymore chick flicks that will remind me of all the gooey stuff I miss. It might be time to go to the yarn store and stock up on winter crafts to keep me productive. I did just watch a fabulous episode of the late great Bob Ross and his oil painting adventures.
Also in the meantime I'm looking into purchasing a new buzz toy. The current buzzer has lived a long life circa 2003, (amazing eh?) and it really is time to put the "eager beaver" to rest. Suggestions welcome.
On my last dating expidition - I ran into some weirdos - but some nice guys too.
I even have my aim buddy list broken into several catergories
- nice guys
- too far away guys
- bad dates
- losers
- boring guys
- annoying sex crazed maniacs
Well I'm a little more choosey about who I wast time chatting with this go arround.
Here are some of the disqualifiers/red flags:
Pass judgement on me if you will but a girl has to have standards.
The NO Way Jose List:
No education after highschool.
Unemployed.
Religious Zealots.
Felons.
Liars.
Cheaters.
No car.
Baby on the way with another woman.
Bad teeth.
Creepy eyes.
Drug use.
Big Drinkers.
Illiterate.
Self-Centered
Egotistical.
Possesing any bastard like qualities.
Youger than 27.
Older than 38.
Weird facial piercings or otherwise.
Dredlocks.
Catergorized as Seperated
Catergorized as Married
Lying about marital status: i.e. One sites profile says Divorced and the other says: Never Married (and he's sent me messages from both.)
Baldness unless it really does work for him.
Beards. Some facial hair is ok - but no full beards.
No hatred of cats.
Ok so I haven't been writing anything on my other adjacent fiction only blog as of late.
Part of the reason - honestly is laziness. The other is after wandering around bookstores and reading blurb after blurb on amazon I felt as though there are no new stories left to be told. I know, I know this is not a news flash. There are only so many plots and the difference is in the meat of the writing, the fleshed out charachters coming to life - reaching across the page and sucking you into the vortex of their world. blah blah blah.
So I was moderately discouraged-- but I will push that aside and try to be more active on that other blog. Plus the long cold winter can be a great motivator for said writing. So keep tuned in.
But then I had to write something for work - and my friend Jacque said that I need to write more becuase she loved my motivational letter on "Being a Fred" (based on the book Fred Factor)
SO I will toss all my insecurities aside and there will be more on Gladys and the crew.
I'll start tomorrow.
So I'll say it. I have a crush on someone & I feel like a school girl for more than one reason. I met Stanley (not his real name) in Kindergarten and we went to school together thru the 4th grade. Then, I went to public middle school instead of staying at the prochial school. We haven't crossed paths since we were 9.
Life passed, and then through the miracles of facebook he found me and we have since had several legenthy conversations online and we can ramble on for hours about serious and not so serious stuff. There are mutual flirtations and we're both single.
So what's the issue? Well we are both recently single - and going through our own break up routines. We're both a little cautious about meeting in person even though we used to play on the same playground 20 years ago. So right now I'm just hopeful that Stan and I can be fantastic friends and after awhile maybe we entertain the idea of dinner date and see what happens. Yes, full blown crush mode.
